call me a freak or an alien...!!

i ve been reading this book by linda goodman, about myself with the sun-sign, aquarius(yeah,may be same as urs, probably thats one more reason that u can relate to it..!!)

although i dont know the genuineness of such books , but i totally was able to relate her stuff with me..!! goosebumps..!!!
it might be the sub-concious activity as when for ex, a medical student thinks that he carries the disease by reading its symptoms, when actually he's not even prone to that disease.!!

anyway,acc to me, AND her..!!
i am a loner,my relationships with ppl are complicated..!!
i think a lot when i am alone..!!
i think while i am in public too, but ppl think i am funny, when i am actually not even trying to be funny..!!
i was totally able to relate the stuff that i know by sigmund freud, the uncanny ,weird behavior and all..!!
probably this is the reason that pulls myself out of the crowd and takes me in my world where i ve a space to think randomly about system....!! the system in general..!!
the system about education for example, which royally screwed us all, i mean(the below is one of my statuses which i randomly wrote one day, but it is all coming back again..!!)

"we used to eat fruits, roam naked in the jungle where there were more trees than human figures, we used to do whateva we wanna do, jump in the river, hang on trees, fool around with different animals..!

we eat adulterated food ,dress up neat, we are drowning in the sea of faces, we have jobs, we have physically realized rain called "shower" in a marble box, we fool around with ourselves....and we call it EVOLUTION ..!!!"

"education" seems to be the root disease for all the problems, although it has a shield for itself by providing fancy inventions to the world as well..
the luxuries that eat up our resources are in a way killing the person slowly , the person who is US physically, AND the person who used to roam naked in the stone age..!!
we r going nowhere..!! we disturbed the balance, we know it too,we created NO checkpoint at that point either..!!

ok...i am getting way too debatable now..!!

the point is that i am hating it..!! hating evrything that i ve around myself..!!
the smallest problem given by the system in anyway pokes needles in my flesh upto the bones and scratches em..!!

i am so damn irritated, even when it comes to my family,i dont talk nicely with anyone..!!

i tried telling my problem to ppl, but they(as usual) laughed away by saying that i need a doc.

do i need any medication..??

HELP..!! tell me if am sounding vague in my long message/blog/querry/whateva..coz its way too long to be read..!!

i just want answers, i feel like going for some meditation stuff, like isolating myself completely with the world n seeking answers to my eternal queries...!!

i am confused over the question that "do i know what is the thing i am confused about..??"

like they said...I AM FEELING LIKE AN ALIEN...!! :-/